Who am I and what do I want?
For a very long time now, I was in exile.
My innocence robbed from me.
My self-esteem abused out of me.
My confidence severely bruised.
I was drowning in the deep pools of anxiety and panic.
I was choking in self-hate.
So much of self-hate, that it was beginning to occupy my entire existence.
I spent more than enough time thinking of ways to escape my existence.
For ways that would not have such heavy repercussions on those I love dearly.
So who am I?
I am no one important. I am no one famous.
I am a soul, just like you.
But I am a soul, who happens to experience…as others would describe it ‘too much emotion’. And some others would add the following damaging words:
to describe my nature.
What do I want?
I want to write!
I want to capture all my ‘over the top’ emotions, express them as best as I can and so that I can release them from my energy.
Because so many, in fact, too many of these emotions have gone completely unnoticed, disregarded and lost in time, together with the lives of the people that experienced them. The lives of people who were told that they were ‘too dramatic’ or ‘too emotional’.
I want to be free of these emotions and if I am able to help anyone out there who also feels emotionally misunderstood and isolated from their loved ones, then I will serve my greater purpose.
For I found myself after all.
And I am going to dance to my inner music.